Its 320am right now and I've been lacking of sleep recently. Am lying on the bed right now listening to music and thinking through lots of stuff. It all started w my dream last night.
1 of the issues being fate. Do you believe in fate? I think I do. Hmmmmm. Just that fate is useless unless it happens at the right place and at the time.
2ndly, I've come to realise that I truly believe in this; " the past is always with us, just waiting to mess with the present".
I'll want life to be like a record tape, I get to play the wonderful memories, pause the happiness, stop the painful ones, and even delete the non beneficial ones.
Ok enough of my thoughts. Today was supposedly the day I was supposed to trash things out w Terry because I was so damn unhappy and so wanted to get out this current r/s. But being ever forgiving like a child, I tend to forget all the unhappiness with a gift. New polaroid cammy! <3
Alright alright, I'm not so materialistic ok. He did put in more effort to love me and treat me better today. Make me happy like how it was today and everything will naturally fall better into place whether or not there is an occurring question of what the ending will be. I'm that easily contented.
Right now I really gotta force myself to sleep. Good morning complicated world,
Xoxo.
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My heart skips a beat when you look at me, like how it always has.
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